Sometimes you can feel the loneliness sip in through the walls
Sometimes it’s your own, sometimes it’s another’s.
It’s so quiet... almost imperceptible, going unseen by most.
But it sits lethally, sucking away at the vitality of its disarmed host.
Passive brain and body spiral into a vortex of contradiction.
The living tautology ruminates: to overcome this fear I must leave this room
But to leave this room I must overcome my fear, a cycle of splitting gloom.
A mind hammering against the same cavernous wall of the skull,
Half hoping to forget itself, half hoping to break through, into the hall,
Or the other side, whatever that may mean, that forever elusive
alternate reality, like a picture frozen in the mind and sieved out
From all the jargon of the days, amongst the real and unreal.
Sometimes it's unreal, sometimes it's the real made unreal.
Concepts, our mental furniture, are not things of reality.
That gap between recollection and experience in all its actuality.
And the worm that creeps in the fertile soil of haughty indecision
Between stepping outside or an eternity inside one’s confines.
Untouchable, the tyrannical observer who watches from above; incision.
That lukewarm zone of suspension between existence and nonexistence.
Looking from the outside-in, neither in reality, nor in embodied experience.
Sometimes I see it in the walls, humming a slow rocking cadence.
But I am not always sure – is it my own? Is it another’s?
Photo: Pixabay (2017)
Poet Bio
Home?
The Earth What is home to you?
'Home' to me means much more than a geographical location or a national-cultural identity. Home is a process, it is something that is constantly growing and that we carry with us. It is a way of relating and creating meaning in the world.
Born into a Brazilian and English family, Nina Purton has trotted over the globe since the age of six, living and visiting many different countries. She is, essentially, nomadic by birth, and continues to be so. Travelling, engaging and learning from new cultures is constantly shaping and expanding her sense of identity. She strives to share and express this experience through art and writing, so that others may also enjoy the fruits of her vision.